Tonight I do it. I will call Papa. I will tell him. I am not a whore. I am finished. I know this now. The new is here now. The phone rings. He answers. I say hello. I wait for this moment 11 years. I tell him I quit it. I am not a whore. He is a happy man. He tells me how? I tell him I have a date a guy. I don't tell him it's open. Just I date him. Papa asks who he is. Wants to know. I said just a guy at the gym. He asks questions lol. Papa worries. I lie. I tell him I stay at Georgia's. I don't. I just visit her. I don't really ask to move in. I just not leave here. Papa talks. He tells me. He hears I'm happy. A voice he has not heard. Not for a long time. I tell him I get therapy. The lady and I talk. It's many times. Mark pays for it. Papa is surprised. This is expensive. I say to him it's ok. I tell him I am sorry. For so long I am angry. I hurt so long. I tell him he keeps me going. I learned Papa is the man I must see. Not the pooner. This is what I learn. Papa tells me. I can come for Easter? I say no. I can't see Mom. I not see her for years. We don't talk. He tells me she gets help. Drinking is slowed down. Papa asks does he know I am a whore. I tell him. It's not a big deal to Mark.
Do you tell someone you are a whore. I tell Mark? It's some time now. You remember I ask him? He is sorry for a whore. No hate at all. I tell him. He is quiet. The next day he comes back, sais another date. It's before Christmas. Is one thing I must do. I get tests. They are all back negative. He does too. Nothing either. This crosses my mind for a long time. What will he do. Instead he does nothing lol.
Papa is proud. He said it's a step. A big step. He asks me what can I do? I tell him I don't know yet. Papa sais I can fly down. He will pay. He wants to see me. He sais can Mark come. I tell him I don't know.
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