I'm going home

Papa gets up.  To drive me. Nana will go too.  It's an early flight.  I pack my stuff.  It's there.  Papa won't mention last night.  Nana talks.  She is positive.  We go to the airport.  It's Hamilton.  I must go.  I tell Papa I love him.  He is my father.  He holds my hand.  I tell him I never forget him.  Nana talks.   She sais I am a strong woman.  I can contact her

On the plane I am angry.  I hate my mom.  She does nothing.  Is a drunk.  She won't change.  I am a whore.  Now I am not a whore . But she is a whore and a drunk always.  It wont' change. 

The plane goes down.  Lands.  My phone is on.  Marky texted me.  He's here.  I go fast.  It's the long walk.  The big doors.  I can see where the suitcase will come.  There I can see Marky.  His jeans.  His shirt is purple.  He smiles.  I run at him. I tell him I love you Marky.  He swings me in a circle.  He sais I love you too.  I can kiss him.  It's the first ever.  To kiss a man while others can see.  I know it. I fuck up.  I treat him bad, but now I don't treat him bad. I love him. 

We get my suitcases.  We go to the car.  Drive home.  I can see Calgary.  I turn up the radio. It's my home.  Marky laughs.  sais calm down.   I tell him it's home.  I kiss him. He is driving. The car goes off the lane lol. 

I know my life.  I make all the mistakes.  Now i can never again.  And I don't.