Do you know love? I don't know it. If you read a book. It says love is good. Love is beautiful. It don't say another. Love is hard. It's no control. I can't control it. I always control things. Now I can't. For me I am 14. It's a first. If you are new to love it's tough. You have questions. You are afraid. One minute you smile. Next you worry. I have something to lose. And now is jealousy. Before I care not for much. He can chat to girls. He can surf on the computer. He can go out with a girl. I don't care. Now I care.
If you take a girl. Afraid of love. And filled with rage. It's a mix. A bad mix. We have a fight. Then another. I ask him who he talks to. He comes home later. Where are you? To solve it, he gets me a new phone. It's got msn. it's got email. it's got all this. Still I think. This is just a good lie. I know men. They do whatever. If they want pussy it's anything. It's how they are. I think its' the case too. Mark works alot. Is he? How can I know. He has another. I know it.
He comes home. It's late. His job is so many hours. I don't believe it. We fight. It's yelling at him. He shows me. Look, it's his hours paid. I don't believe it. He makes this on the computer I say. He puts up his hand. What can he say? What can he do? I don't like it. I don't like this feeling. I don't kknow this but I know now. I push him away.
You are a whore? Do you know love? It's scary. You can't control it. You dont' feel it. It's a terrible feeling. But it's a beautiful feeling. You can change this feeling in 1 minute. To do this and a woman with anger. It's a bad mix. A bad bad mix.
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