I miss the gym. The night is cooler now. So the car won't go so easy. It gets warmer. I get to the gym. Mark is there. He comes over. He sais where have I been? Why does he notice? I tell him my car is broken. He said what's wrong. I say the battery. He can see I have no money. He tells me a junk yard might. I say I don't know where. He sais he can get me the address. And the phone. I don't say I have no phone. He sais we live close. How about a ride? It's free. I say no thanks. I only get in cars for money. But I think about it. Why not. I know this. He will give me a ride here. Then I can sweet talk. Get a ride to the store. He will do it. He is the dog to a bone lol. This man can be so easily fooled by me. He is older. I am pretty. It's a great combo for me. I tell him actually yes, I would like it. He sais sure. He asks do I want off just near my house or at it? He knows I'm a woman. I am puzzled. I tell him my house. He drives on this street. He said wow tough area. Tells me aren't I scared at night. I say no way. I am tough. He stops. I notice he waits. I get inside and he leaves. I laugh. Nice guy. Then I go upstairs. I will shower. I get dressed. I go stand on the street. Not for long. Just one car date. It's a red. It's groceries. With this I can eat Safeway. No more dollar store. I do one a night. Then I leave. I say nothing. I don't do FS. If they want I don't get in the car. FS is dangerous. You can get caught. Then I am in trouble. I would embarrass Papa. I imagine. My Mom finds out. I am arrested. A SW. She tells everyone. I was right. Larissa is a loser. The money isn't much. But it's better than Dollar Store food. I feel bad. Inside I let Papa down. I let down one man I never wish too.
Mark comes. Each day he gets me. He drives me home. His car has a big radio. It's loud. He tells me turn it up lol. Now i love a song. It's Tik Tok. It's new. Now you know the date. It's autumn 2009. I have been a whore over 10 years.
You want to be a whore? Maybe go to college? This idea is not so bad. 2 years, some dates, easy money. No biggie. Or you can work just a day a week. 3 browns. It's 12 browns a month. You do it. You have a bad job. These businesses. They pay you just 30 a year. How can you live? Not to eat good food. So maybe you work part time. This is good too. 10 years? Some girls can. They love sex. A new fuck. Or they have a husband. He's good with it. Yes, some whores marry!. For you it seems strange. But this is rare. If you are a whore 10 years guess what. You are tired of it. Also you dislike men. I was this way. I dislike men. I want the power. I wish control. For me it's a game. This is most whores for 10 years. Why don't they leave? What can they do? If they get a job, it's bad pay. So they will suffer. Now you say so what. Suck it up princess? Well how about you? You hate your job. You dream of being a painter. You don't. Why? It's not enough money. So you are critical of the whore. But not of you. It's all the same buddy. All are slaves really. But as a whore you have control. And the money is good. Some parts are pretty good. Some are bad.
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