Larissa the little girl

I am like the SP you expect to see.  My family is broken.  I don't know my real father and my mom doesn't either.  My mom drinks.  To face her failures she hides in alcohol.  When she drinks she becomes mean.  She says things just to hurt others.   I have a step father.  He is good to me.  He is a yes man.  He says what it takes to keep my mom happy.  Both my parents know what I did.  My mom likes to tell the rest of the family what I do to make fun of me.  My step dad is better.  He says I'm troubled and he will always be there.  Another member of my family is my Nana.  She is close to me.  She told me sometimes women do what it takes to survive.  She said I should not feel disappointed in my choices.  She said I am not stupid, but a victim and I must remember that.  She said I started being a victim when I was Larissa, the little girl.

When I was a teen, this is when the trouble really started.  When I was old enough I left school.  I wanted out of the house and out of the drinking.  When you are 16 you are stupid.  If you are a 16 year old and thinking you will find your way, I have advice for you.  Go find real help.  Don't let your boyfriend help you.  Don't think that older man cares for you.  Don't think you can go be a stripper.  Once you start down the spiral you cannot stop.  When you are 16 and there is easy money you think what a good deal.  I'm here to tell you it's a bad idea.  Maybe you hate your McDonalds job but I wish I had have had that job.

At 17 I became a stripper.  I was not the right age but I lied.  It was easy money and I could make a lot in a lap dance booth.  You know some men will pay and pay if you let them play.  So I did.  This is where my life went downhill.  It is because I met a older guy.  I was 17 and he was 30.  I was stupid and naive and I thought he liked me.  I thought he loved me.  Only I did not realize for him I was just some young girl that was a conquest.  He was a creep.  If you are a teenager that older guy will do you know favours.  This man I met had a big problem.  He smoked crack.  And then I smoked it.  And then I needed it.  And the easiest way to get money as a woman is not to strip but to be a street walker.  When you are a pretty young girl you can command $200 dollars for 10 minutes.  That's good money.