Crossing the Line

If you are a stripper it is good money if you do lap dances.  It's how you make money now because no one will tip you much if you table dance.  You must pay stage fees too.  When I am a stripper I learn some of the other girls are making money on the side.  They are offering more services to men than just a lap dance.  I hear about this money and now I am needing drugs so I spend a large amount.  When you get addicted you stop caring.  This circle goes in circles. 

I am leaving one night walking home.  It is summer.  As I wait for the stop light this car pulls up and this guy says how much does it cost.  I am a bit drunk so I said to him $100 dollars for a blow job.  He said to me get in.  I am in this car now and he goes into an alley nearby and parks.  He gives me the money and then puts his seat back.  He slides his shorts down.  The job is over in just a few minutes.  He is a good looking man.  I think why does he need this when he could get a regular woman?  I get out of his car and walk back on the way home.  I am holding the $100 dollars and I think how easy that was.  In my mind I think if I am working at fast food I must work 2 days to make this money.  I make it in just 10 minutes.  Just like that I am now a hooker.  You would think I feel bad but I don't feel so bad.  I can only think of the $100 dollars.  How easy it is.  This is what I think but I am wrong.  You will see

The next day I decide I will do the same again.  I am afraid the police will catch me.  So I go to the bus stop and sit on the bench. I watch the cars.  Some slow down, they look, then move on.  Others go in circles.   They keep looking but won't stop.  Finally this man pulls up.  It's a minivan.  I remember it because in the back is two child seats.  I see them.  I think about his wife.  I wonder why he is here.  Still I get in and he says what he wants.  I say the price is $150.  He says he has $120.  I say it's good enough.  He finds where to park in the dark street and like the first it is over quick.  I go home.   It's this night I learn to buy condoms without any lube.  I get them on Queen Street in Toronto with flavour lol so it makes the job easier.